You surely must have a lot of time on your hands, I’m sure I do.
I’ve thought about putting it on paper quite a few times. Finding love is an unending quest for many. It’s so unending that it is quite bothersome to many people at many times. I hate statistics but after hearing about it, I really thought hard about why it is so. For such a valuable thing, people sure throw it away quickly. This love is such awe. People are getting together then leaving each other faster than I can count to ten, sometimes quite literally. Despite the depression it causes, it also leaves quite an impression sometimes. There is more than a fair share of unbelievable stories.
As an emotion, a catalyst of action, love really interests me. Everywhere I turn, I see something that can be related to it. No matter how hard I try, I’m sure I can’t ever not think of it. So why bother, right? I jump onto bed every night and think quite a bit about it. It interests me even more because I know most people would see it quite differently from what I think of it. What I think of it is nothing simple, however. I find love the same as I have always found it. Ever since I was a child, I always thought that love is something to be cherished and held for a long time. Now, I’m sure most people would tell me that they think the same, but I beg to differ. When they say it, most of them barely mean it. To them, this is just an amusement to pass the time or something of the sort. But halfway through this thought, I find myself thinking that this is not true either. There are quite a few people out there that treat their love as special, I would like to think that all my friends thought so too. I can’t help but feel hopeless when I see some of them though. So what do I stay with? I wish to be optimistic here and say that love is indeed special to everyone. I say that with half-hearted honesty, honestly.
Then if you’re lucky enough, and most of you probably are, you get to take the journey for two. This journey is very alike to working out to get fit. Getting hit a lot and becoming stronger, that is fundamentally what it is. If you have a good foundation, that will help out for a while. In the end, though, it really all comes down to if you can survive through all those temptations and disagreements. Very much like how countries relate to each other, war after war then strangely peaceful again. That peace never lasts long though, and it never seems to be strong. Then it all falls apart here. Not many people last through this hectic time together. What about me, they would always think. But it’s never wrong to think about yourself first, it’s just that you think only about yourself. You even forgot all about her now. But I digress. What really happens here is that ever lasting quest. It will never end, temptation even greets you after she passes away. Having seen one person go through all this without once failing his partner, I truly believe that this journey can end with a happy ending.
Do I really believe that I will be able to go through such a wondrous journey? I do not believe so. Lacking courage and responsibility is a hard blow for me. I always feel unconfident in myself and for good reason. I am not ready for a relationship yet, I honestly say. I believe Murphy’s Law shall take effect and never will I get a chance to meet someone that I truly think I can create a long lasting relationship with. But this is what happens when you are a writer that writes exactly how he thinks as he thinks it. Oh the irony of it all that this will have no effect because people will be too busy loving each other. And yes, I am single.
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